Yesterday ended the longest week I've ever had pretty much ever. Yesterday all I did after work was watch Season 1 of Dead Like Me and go to bed early. That's a pretty good show.
Last week was just one thing after another every day both in and out of work. Lots of it was fun, parts of it sucked, and all of it left me kind of a zombie for this date I had on Sunday. PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME, DATE FROM SUNDAY WHOSE IDENTITY I AM NOT REVEALING BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW I HAVE A BLOG AND I DON'T WANT TO FUCK UP YOUR LIFE WITHOUT PERMISSION!
IT'D BE COOL IF WE COULD GO OUT AGAIN!
Anyway I wanted to tell you about my shower this morning when I had the opportunity to marvel at the mysterious wonder of the human mind. So I'm about to get out because I was remarkably late for work as usual, when some bizarre switch was flipped and this song popped into my head.
A song I had not thought of for 8 years! I KNOW!
When I was a sophomore in college, I found this flash animation of a little cat in a box singing about how sad he was that he hadn't found anyone to love. It was sweet and schmaltzingly heart-breaking and pretty much the best flash animation to ever have been. I memorized all the words and learned to play it on the piano by ear and it was totally my life for like 3 months until it was taken down for copyright infringement because apparently the song was from some anime movie.
So years passed, and the song is totally absent from my memory... until today! I grabbed the shower curtain and from nowhere the sound of that kitty cat's high-pitched croon "Wiiiishing on a dream that seems far off..."
But that's all I had. I kept thinking and repeating it trying to get more of the song to come. And eventually, line by line, I reconstructed the entire thing! Sometimes I'd remember a word and sometimes a snippet of melody, and from that, I'd get the entire phrase and then move on to the next. It was like a miracle of nature! That for 8 years, I've been living my life with the kitty song deeply embedded in my unconscious, and then some errant synapse fires and brings it all out!
What other long-suppressed mysteries does my yucky slimy thing hold? AND WHEN WILL THEY RESURFACE!? Kitty song was a part of my identity those years ago. Am I not a full person without these forgotten experiences? Or perhaps kitty song has been defining me in subtle ways ever since without my knowledge. Perhaps who I am today has everything to do with the unrecognized influence of a sad, yet optimistic kitten in a box waiting on her shooting star.
OH WAIT I FORGOT WITH THE MAGIC OF WEB 2.0 NO MEMORY IS EVER LOST!
Ha! "There's a hole within my soul." Well done, YouTube capturing algorithm!